|My husband and son|
Here is the emotionally exhausting part.....when you're fat, you are constantly gaging everyone else's physique - are they skinny, are they fat, are you the fattest person at the parade...that stuff is pretty much always going through your mind. I wonder if other people (i.e. not overweight) have the same kind of thoughts... So, because of my new commitment to changing my life, I have my body image on the brain even more.... I wish I could have held a sign or made a t-shirt that explained the fact that I am about to embark on a journey....don't discount me as a typical fat person just yet....wait and see.....but I couldn't. Instead, I had the same unease about my body image..especially around my children. Are people judging me as a parent or as a wife based on weight? Do people feel bad for my husband? Do they look at me the same way I look at parents who smoke?
Geaux CrossFit that talked to me about nutrition mentioned her troubles with withdrawal from sugar when she switched to the Paleo diet. And this is coming from a perfect bodied - toned, thin, and tan - trainer. I am ready to fight this uphill battle. I am addicted to food - sugar, fat, carbs, etc.... and I am going cold turkey in a little more than 24 hours. So, if you happen to see me the next couple weeks and I seem a little grumpy you will know why - I am facing my demons head on in the hopes to become a healthier and stronger me.