Tuesday, April 5, 2011

Day 16.....14 days to go!

Well, for the most part, today was uneventful...I had a leftover meatball for breakfast and leftover green curry for lunch.  Both were satisfying..nothing to exciting.

For dinner tonight, we went out to celebrate my dad's birthday.  He let me choose the restaurant so we could go to one that I could easily eat at (how wonderful is that??).  I did some research and chose Carrabbas because they have a gluten free menu and I figured that was a good place to start.  I avoided  the delicious bread and olive oil...ugh...it was hard.  I got the chicken soup with no noodles - who knew that was an option?  I was afraid it would contain beans and dairy but they said no to both.  I got the chicken marsala with zucchini.  The first time they brought it out, it had delicious looking Parmesan cheese on  it.  The waitress apologized and brought a new batch out without the cheese.  My meal really was delicious and satisfying and I couldn't even finish it.  I think about before this all started..how much bread I would have had in addition to my meal.  Abby got ice cream for dessert - she tried many new foods - an Italian salad, my soup, etc.. and she usually doesn't try anything!  I was very proud.  And they gave my dad a gigantic piece of yellow cake with whipped cream and strawberries that looked sooo good.  I looked the other way to all of that and guess what?  I do not feel sick after eating out!  That is the first time in a long time that has happened!

Sooo..in a way I guess it is bittersweet.  I made it through my first special event (dad's birthday) and I am proud I didn't eat totally off the diet.  But I miss being able to eat the cake with everyone and discuss what we think of it...or talk about how the bread compares to others...or eat the piece of pizza or ice cream or other food that Lucas and Abby are trying to feed me.  I think about my son's birthday in May and my birthday in June.  I think about upcoming weddings and vacations and holidays and anniversary celebrations... am I really going to be able to do this?  For me, food plays such a big role in all of those events..I am so happy that I feel good and am moving towards becoming healthy but (and I know this is just another thing that makes me sound crazy) I feel like I am losing a piece of me too.  I honestly have to rethink pretty much every special event and what it is going to mean to me.  I am trying to take one day at a time but I can't help to think about what lies ahead in the near future. 

Today is day 16 and I am beginning to realize that, in 14 days when my commitment is over, I have some big decisions to make about how I want to live my life.....

Pre Paleo me drinking a beer..eating some gluten...knowing that I will be sick before the night is over...

1 comment:

  1. Bethany,

    You are doing wonderful and I can only imagine how much of a struggle it is. When I switched to Paleo it was very hard for me too. Seeing all of your friends enjoy the things you love without caution and having a good time while you sip water and eat a bread free meal was very hard. However, after I talked to my friends and explained to them how hard it can be, I realized they felt the same exact way about me. They wanted to be healthy and feel better and admired my commitment. People feel the same way about you. Don't feel like you are missing out because when your sitting there resisting the temptation, others are wishing they had the strength.

    keep up the great work and I hope you continue this journey past your deadline! Here's to a healthy life full of energy and exciting possibilities!

    Keep on Keepin' On,

    Amber Leonrd
    Geaux CrossFit Trainer