Today was a tough day, I am not going to lie. It was the first day where I just kind of had enough being on a restricted diet....
it started with breakfast - I decided to have some vegetable stew that I made...and I made a HUGE pot of it thinking I could freeze it and have it as a back up - it had zucchini, summer squash, green beans, onions, carrots, corn, tomatoes and ground beef. Normally I would have added Parmesan cheese but since Paleo is dairy free I decided to throw in some bouillon cubes to give it a little flavor.
I brought a big bowl of it to work - today I had a big deadline so I knew there was not going to be anytime to prepare food and snack. I got about halfway through the bowl and started feeling the same sickness I used to feel pretty much every time I eat. I won't go into details but lets just say the whole ordeal wasn't pretty. I knew it was food related so I wrote down all the ingredients in the soup - tomato paste, beef broth, veggies, all good. I didn't even think about the bouillon cubes having anything bad in them...but, guess what. They had gluten! I feel like this might confirm my suspicion for quite some time - I have an intolerance to gluten. Awhile back, I went to the doctor a few times for my bad stomach issues...she gave me a bland diet with no dairy and it didn't help. I just kind of gave up and figured I would have to live the rest of my life feeling pretty miserable...well, that bland diet was full of mostly whole wheat and low-fat products just full of gluten!
I didn't end up eating lunh until around 2 and by then I was starving. I was kind of avoiding food because I was annoyed and angry at the bouillon cubes...who knows where gluten is lurking....I was out and about with Lucas and we ended up at a Chickfila- I got the grilled chicken sandwich and just at the chicken and lettuce..it was not so bad, filled me up and didn't make me sick.
I don't know...I just wasn't feeling it today...but I still made it through. For some reason, if I tell myself that I am avoiding all the foods I love because of an allergy it is easier to resist than if I am doing it for a diet...okay, I knew I shouldn't have typed that because it makes me sound a little crazy....I guess I am just hoping tomorrow is a better day.
it started with breakfast - I decided to have some vegetable stew that I made...and I made a HUGE pot of it thinking I could freeze it and have it as a back up - it had zucchini, summer squash, green beans, onions, carrots, corn, tomatoes and ground beef. Normally I would have added Parmesan cheese but since Paleo is dairy free I decided to throw in some bouillon cubes to give it a little flavor.
I brought a big bowl of it to work - today I had a big deadline so I knew there was not going to be anytime to prepare food and snack. I got about halfway through the bowl and started feeling the same sickness I used to feel pretty much every time I eat. I won't go into details but lets just say the whole ordeal wasn't pretty. I knew it was food related so I wrote down all the ingredients in the soup - tomato paste, beef broth, veggies, all good. I didn't even think about the bouillon cubes having anything bad in them...but, guess what. They had gluten! I feel like this might confirm my suspicion for quite some time - I have an intolerance to gluten. Awhile back, I went to the doctor a few times for my bad stomach issues...she gave me a bland diet with no dairy and it didn't help. I just kind of gave up and figured I would have to live the rest of my life feeling pretty miserable...well, that bland diet was full of mostly whole wheat and low-fat products just full of gluten!
I didn't end up eating lunh until around 2 and by then I was starving. I was kind of avoiding food because I was annoyed and angry at the bouillon cubes...who knows where gluten is lurking....I was out and about with Lucas and we ended up at a Chickfila- I got the grilled chicken sandwich and just at the chicken and lettuce..it was not so bad, filled me up and didn't make me sick.
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| A visit to Jason's Deli with no mini muffins is sad |
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| Sauerkraut and corned beef takes away the pain |
Today is Thursday, gymnastics day, and the night that Abby gets to choose where we eat. Today she chose Jason's Deli who has a separate Gluten Free menu! Yayay Jason's Deli! I was still finding it hard to follow Paleo so I decided to order my corned beef and sauerkraut on their gluten free bread....now I know there is debate about sauerkraut being Paleo because of it's salt content but, for me, you gotta pick and choose your inner battles. Soo..sauerkraut it is! Well, when I got the sandwich, I decided that gluten free bread is something I could certainly experiment with...after my 30 day commitment. I have committed to live Paleo, as strict as I can for 30 days. So no bread, of any kind, for me!
I checked the Geaux Crossfit website for the Workout of the Day and am a bit nervous because we are asked to watch video before we show up tomorrow..uh oh....
I don't know...I just wasn't feeling it today...but I still made it through. For some reason, if I tell myself that I am avoiding all the foods I love because of an allergy it is easier to resist than if I am doing it for a diet...okay, I knew I shouldn't have typed that because it makes me sound a little crazy....I guess I am just hoping tomorrow is a better day.
Not crazy, and hang in there!
ReplyDeleteI still get tripped up in the cycle of craving/succumbing and sometimes, I get into that dangerous place where I get angry at myself for succumbing. Bad place to be.
Just remember that you always have a Choice, and what you are trying to do is make the Better Choice. So when you're sitting there with a piece of chicken and a bowl of macaroni and cheese, think of all the amazing things that the chicken is going to do for your body. Think of your next workout, think of how much better you'll sleep, think of how you WON'T get those stomach pains. And be proud of yourself for being so kind to your body.
And sauerkraut is HUGELY nourishing by the way. I'm sure there are some brands with weird preservatives but it's pretty easy to find the ones that are simple. The fermentation is SO good for maintaining healthy gut flora (as in, good digestion and getting the most out of the food you do eat).
OK - I'm done for today, I promise! You're doing great!
gluten free (GF) has become a lot easier to do. now, GF and soy and dairy restrictions are not. One friend is having to do that. Keep up the great work! It's HARD giving up all the comfort food, but you're doing a great job! I'm so impressed!!!
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